Okay so last friday [Feb. 15] we finally had those stupid mandatory auditions for Shakespeare class. [Yes, I went through with SHakespeare classes *gulp*] We were given strips of paper the previous day with a name of a character and a line we would be reading IN FRONT OF THE WHOLE CLASS.

Oh gosh, I was so nervous! I had to play a dude too. Great. I can have a brain-crashing, confidence-crushing, embarrassing experience. Curse this fear of public speaking. Stupid stagefright.

Anyway, my character was Edmund and I had no idea who he was, so I searched him. Turns out Shakespeare likes to use the name Edmuns coz it appeared in different plays, so I searched part of my speech too, and there it was. Edmund was a dudde from King Lear. Turns out, Edmund was an illegitimate child, that's why my speech seemed so accusing and angry. Take a look:

Thou, nature, art my goddess; to thy law
My services are bound. Wherefore should I
Stand in the plague of custom, and permit
The curiosity of nations to deprive me,
For that I am some twelve or fourteen moon-shines
Lag of a brother? Why bastard? Wherefore base?
When my dimensins are as well compact,
My mind as generous, and my shape as true,
As honest as madam's issue? Why brand they us
With base? With baseness? Bastardy? Base, base?

Yeah, lots of strong words in there, so, the pressure was definitely on. And since my surname usually makes me the end of the group, I had to make sure I was good. I was freaking out the night before the auditions. Good thing we didn't have to memorize or I would've really been sick. [Although I couldn't help bu think of Rhea when I was reading the speech coz of the word Moonshines...LoL. If you know what I'm talking about, kudos to you!]

Anyway, the day of the auditions came. [How the heck can you give a mandatory audition? That is so not fair!] And yeah, I was dead last. Peaople were really awesome. Y'know coz they were all seniors and I was the only junior in the class. Sometimes, being an overachiever can have its downsides, LoL. Anyway, when it was my turn, the teacher put even more pressure saying something like 'let's see if the best really is for last.' Ugh.

So I went in front, told them I was reading Edmund from King Lear and the teacher was like 'Oh, is this the bastard speech?' and I said yes, so she goes 'Okay, so you're angry, you have so much emotion bottled up in you...' and I know it was kinda rude but I was thinking 'yeah, lady, I know what I'm suppose to do! Let's just get this stupid audition over with already!'

Then I read my speech as best as I could, ignoring my shaking hands holding that piece of paper. When I finished the teacher told me how surprisingl good I was [considering I was small and all....man, why does she have to add that? I'm already self-conscious and she has to make cracks about my height!] She also told me I'd make a good bastard and I had good voice projection. Make a good bastard? Okay, should I thank you or slap you?

Huh. I dunno. Maybe they just thought I was good because it was still early in the morning. I doubt she'd give me a big part though. Still, it was nice to have been applauded even though I don't know why they thought I was good. And I'm still unsure about that bastard comment.

Until next time. Hopefully I won't be called something thats derogatory even though it was intended as a compliment.


L♥ve,
Zyra